The Thrill-seeker's Thoughts.
She's a little bit of everything.
Thoughts while on the road:
Recently, I’ve been struggling with money. To get over the struggling feels, I have to change my mindset. I’m beginning to understand why I am like this when it comes to financial issues. My college days were rough but I always had money left in my pocket just enough to get through the week. I realized that those days was so different from now. Because before I graduated, I thought that if I had a job I would be freaking rich. But after 5 months in the “real” world, It wasn’t like that. It was never like that at all. I wasn’t able to anticipate that once I graduate, bigger responsibilities are yet to come. I’m just beginning to accept that fact. (Yes, I’m that slow.)
I am now accepting that I’m a failure; I’m a failure with managing my personal finances. Thanks to Sir Bo Sanchez for giving me guts to say that. I am now facing my Goliath. I am failing because I will soon succeed. I will get through this.
After this day, I will no longer see money as a great problem. I will not think of it as something I can remove from my life. I will treat it as a part of life. (Because it really is!) And in that way, I will feel better and I will not be so hard on myself.
I just want to thank the people who have seen me in my struggle and never let me down. Thank you to my family because whenever I’m with them I feel so rich. (Rich with their unconditional love and support!) Thank you to James because he keeps on reminding me to not think about money so much because it just comes and goes. To my workmates, who made every single day at the office less stressful through the jokes and laughs that we share.
To Tim Burton’s Alice in Wonderland, thank you for teaching me that I have to know and accept myself first (and never ever forget it) in order to make better decisions in life. (And for making me believe that I can kill the Jabberwocky, and a lot more lessons in life!)
I also want to share what I learned from the Marigold Hotel that I keep on telling myself whenever I’m struggling: If it’s not okay in the end, it is not yet the end. Since my life is not okay right now, I don’t have to feel down because it’s not yet over. I still have to keep on fighting.
And sorry to my friends that I keep saying no to our get-together plans. It’s not that I don’t want to be with you or I have better plans, it’s just that it’s been a rough time.
I’m sharing this with you people because I’m hoping that you will learn a thing or two from this post. Or maybe we could share some ideas or jokes for those who can relate to my situation.
So long, greedy-shallow-money-worshiping Apple.